Stressed or Anxious? (Part 2)

On part 1, I talked about what I know anxiety is and the ways that can help us prevent it or prevent anxiety episodes or anxiety attacks or panic attacks. On this part, I want to share with you the thing when I do when I am so stressed out and anxious.

Anxiety is like any other illnesses. We need to get through some tough times. We also need to take extra care of ourselves and when we experience attacks or when our “visitor” came, we got to do something. If I am having headaches, I drink paracetamol. If the visitor visited me, here are the things that I do. A disclaimer: I am not any expert, okay? What worked for me may not for everyone else.

  • Acupressure

This is very helpful when you’re out, in a public place for instance. When you felt the visitor, you can press the pressure points that may help relieve it. Refer to to know these points.

Using your knuckles, you can also try gently tapping the top of your head in a rhythmic manner to lead your visitor out the door.

  • Breathe

This was what my diabetes doctor told me, when I’m having my visitor, I can get a brown bag and breathe in it. According to him, the air I exhale should also be what I inhale. Get a brown bag and cover your nostrils and mouth with it; make sure no air’s coming out or in. Breathe in the bag through your mouth for 10-15 minutes.

There are also a lot of mobile applications that offer anxiety relief using different breathing exercises. Check them out. I suggest that you also read on their reviews just so you’d see that you’re never alone in this. The apps I’ve used were “Prana Breath” and “SAMapp“. The latter is also a great application that may help you understand anxiety better.

Without the help of anything, you can also breathe deeply on your own accord. Concentrate on your breathing as you deep in and out slowly and deeply. Count your breaths to deepen your concentration and get away with the visitor.

  • Mind Games

The main purpose of this is to distract our minds. Download mind games on your phone. I personally like Sudoku and Word Search, but Sudoku works better for me. Choose something really challenging.

  • Focus Elsewhere

If your phone’s not available to help you, just focus on whatever thing you can see. Examine that thing like as if you’ll be writing a dissertation about it. What is it? What color is it? Is it soft or rough; huge or small; round or whatever? What does it do? Done examining it yet you still feel the visitor? Find something else.

  • Talk

You could either tell someone that you’re stressed and then talk about it or start a conversation with someone about the first thing you’re able to think of apart your visitor. I hope both or either can help you.

  • Pray

When you don’t have someone to talk to, pray. I pray the rosary and recite a prayer in my mind over and over again. Sometimes, I write my prayers. This one’s very helpful to me. Have the faith and pray. Believe that all will be well.

After an episode, learn to stand up. Don’t be afraid that another one will come up. Stand up; rise up every after a fall. We can do it.

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. (Confucius)

It’s difficult to be strong, I should know, but all the time, it is possible. Yes?
It is also extremely important to keep a positive mindset. I know it’s not easy. It’s like drinking a really bitter medicine or going through painful operations when you have other diseases. It’s difficult yet a must. We’ll get better. Everything will be better. Believe

If there are a million reasons to be afraidthere are a billion reasons not to be.
*Hey guys, if you are going to comment, please be very careful as I am pretty sensitive. I’d like to be of help by sharing to you the knowledge that I have acquired. For now, that’s all the help I could offer.

Stressed or Anxious? (Part 1)

Ever since I’d begun this blog, I am hesitant in writing about this topic for the simple reason that while talking about it, I may feel it. Stress and anxiety were two of the not good things in life. Just the word anxiety makes me anxious tbh so let’s see how far I’ll go with this post. I’m hoping that it could be helpful still. Alright…

Since I’m scared of the word “anxiety”, I referred to myself as so stressed whenever I feel anxious. It’s almost the same anyway. Stress is one of the causes of anxiety. When you over think, you get stressed. When you get too stressed, you get anxious. Over thinking, I personally believe, is the main cause of anxiety. Other causes include physical condition, tension (which may also be caused by stress), fearful incidents, and genetics.

Anxiety can be felt mentally, physically, and both. When thoughts come in and in and in, and you feel like you’re losing control over them, that’s anxiety. When your heart’s palpitating with no reason and you feel an unexplainable tension, pain, or any physical sensation, that may also be anxiety. It’s different for everyone. But if you experience it, hey, you’re not alone. Also, don’t worry too much. There are ways on how you can cope with it. You’ll be well. Every episode shall pass.

I’m also hesitant to share this post because I worry that someone I personally know may read it and then, worry about me. Please don’t.

Anxiety, just like other illnesses, can be prevented through the following. A disclaimer though, I’m not an expert; these information were based from my experiences and the things I read.

  • Meditation

Meditation is a form of mind training. Its main purpose is to bring us back to the “now”. It trains the mind to focus in the moment and cut the train of thoughts that do not help us. The concept of meditation is not ignoring thoughts (no matter absurd); it’s about trying not to judge them so that we’ll be able to control them and not the other way around.

I used the mobile application “Calm” to meditate every night. This is basically how you meditate: (1) find a quiet place to sit down, (2) close your eyes and begin to breathe deeply in and out, (3) put all your focus on the flow of your breathing, (4) breathe normally and concentrate on your breathing for 5-10 minutes, (5) bring your focus back in the room you’re in, then (6) gently open your eyes.

  • Gratitude

Anxiety roots from negative thinking and so, to combat it, you need to be positive. I like another mobile app, “Bliss“. It’s an app that allows you to appreciate what you have to increase your happiness and improve the quality of your life. Another disclaimer, I’m not paid by any of these applications. I find them helpful so I’m sharing them with you.

Bliss has many options. You can list three things you’re thankful about daily or just write in a paragraph form the things and people you’re grateful about. You may also re-imagine a not so good situation and turn it into good. Each activity could really help us remove our focus on the things that are not working out, in our lives as well as our daily worries.

  • Rest

So simple yet not all of us does it. I’ve read that we experience anxiety episodes when our bodies were trying to tell us something. My body told me on the last day of 2015 that my blood glucose level is high through an anxiety episode. It’s not always that extreme though. Most of the time, we get anxious because our body needed rest.

We should acknowledge that we also have limitations. A machine will malfunction if used beyond its capability and so will a human body. When you’re tired, rest. You won’t stop, you will just take a break. You don’t have to sleep, you could just take a nap.

  • Pamper Yourself

Each of us needed relaxation. Each of us deserves pampering. Not all of us has the means to go to spas or massage therapists I know. But we definitely can still relax.

Here’s what I do when I pamper myself: (1) clean my nails and paint them, (2) light scented candles [strawberry and grapes] and massage my head, (3) put on face mask, (4) exfoliate my skin with milk salt, and sometimes (5) listen to ASMR through YouTube.

  • Express Yourself

Don’t hold onto your emotions and thoughts. Release them through different mediums. You could write them in your diary, blog about them, or talk to your friends or family about them. You could also indirectly release your stressors through drawing, painting, baking, singing, or any activity that works best for you.

Let it go! Let it go! Don’t hold it back anymore. (Let It Go from Frozen)

  • Yoga

Anyone can do yoga. Everyone should do yoga. Yoga is not only a great physical activity that can help us tone our body, it is also a form of mental training and relaxation. Yoga includes different poses; each focusing on one or more organs of our bodies. It also includes different breathing techniques that could help relieve stress and anxiety.

I do yoga with the help of the mobile apps “Yoga Monkey” and “Sworkit“, and  “Yoga with Adriene”  on YouTube.

  • Workout

There are different workouts that help us become fitter. Aside from their benefits for our body, it also has positive benefits for our thoughts and emotions. Working out may help us clear our mind and whenever we work out, we release endorphins (also referred as “happy hormones”).

I know we tend to be really busy with our daily lives and sometimes we no longer have the energy to workout after a day of work. We can always start small like 5 minutes of warm-up cardio before we head onto the shower every morning. The app “Sworkit” helped me plan my workout routines for every week.

  • Seek God

To me, knowing that there’s someone out there gives me hope and security. I trust that He will always save me from my troubles. I read Bible daily and other devotional books. I also pray all the time.

That’s all for this part. On part 2, I’ll share with you the things we can do when we’re having our visitors.

I want to end this post with my current favorite quote.

*Hey guys, if you are going to comment, please be very careful as I am pretty sensitive. I’d like to be of help by sharing to you the knowledge that I have acquired. For now, that’s all the help I could offer.

I am not fat.

I’m so tired of being called “fat”.

I’ve been fat my whole life and I’ve been teased about it since I could remember. It wasn’t cool, you know? It wasn’t cool to be defined by the weight of your body. Although saddened and extremely pissed at my detractors, I never really did anything about it until I got a problem in my stomach. It was back in high school. My doctor then prescribed me some suplements to help my digestive system digests the food I take in quickly.

Apart from those tablets that I used to take every after meals, I also had some sort of a chocolate shake (it may be a protein shake) which supposedly replace one of my meals every day, ideally dinner. However, I didn’t have any control over my mouth. Especially when our dinner’s just so yummy, who am I to resist? Right?

It’s also super difficult to go on a diet when your entire family loves to eat. Where’s your support, family? So… To conclude my attempt to weight loss, I simply fail miserably. I didn’t really lose any weight. My stomach got well though so… so…

And then here comes the tear-jerking part. I got diabetes. (Cries) No more sweets! No more excessive/binge eating! Control! Control! Control! Hello, nausea, headaches, body pain, energy gap, anxiety, and depression (I won’t go into details on this one, this’ll be on another blog post).

So… My doctor advised me to excercise. My blood was thick due to excessive glucose so I needed to move my body, shake it, and of course watch what I eat to make it normal-or at least close to normal. I did as I was told. I wanted to get well. I hate being sick for I believe when you’re sick, you don’t enjoy life best (which is not really the case).

So… I worked out. Cardio became my best friend. Since I was only a beginner in exercise, I only do 5-10 minutes of cardio with the help of a mobile app. That’s aside from walking every morning for 30 minutes more or less. I was too afraid during those days, tbh, to eat anything. I was clueless (I still am actually) on the food that I could eat. I was afraid all the food in the table would cause a rise in my blood sugar so I only take small portions. I was probably nauseous then because of nutrient deficiency as well.

My weight after a few months had significantly decreased. I think I lost 10 pounds in the first two to three months. That was a lot, isn’t it? My blood sugar also went back to normal, thank goodness!

However… However! I kept on falling after six months. My average blood sugar for four months is above normal, which isn’t good. I was eating food that I knew I wasn’t supposed to. I no longer walk everyday. I don’t workout everyday. I eat a lot again. I don’t lose any more weight.

Sometimes, I get confused with my body. I haven’t still memorized it and the signs it’s giving me. When I’m feeling unwell say for instance, I’m not sure if it’s because my blood sugar is high or low or it’s due to stress. But because I’m diabetic, it’s probably the first option.

Right now, I very really want to get back on track. I want to live life to the fullest and I don’t want family to worry. I also no longer want to be called “fat”. I am not fat! OK, I may still be fat but that won’t be forever.

My goal is to be fitter and most of all, healthier. It’s not going to be easy, that’s no brainer but I’ve already done it before. I would be strong enough to do it again. My journey to being “not fat” has begun.

Take Time to Heal

It’s hard to be strong all the time. It’s harder to feign being strong all the time.

If you think it’s wrong to be weak. You’re wrong. It’s normal. Life is hard; it is a total bitch sometimes. It’s reasonable to be tired, to be sick of it, to be depressed about it, to be frightened by it, to be mad about it. Surrendering to your weakness does not mean you will surrender to it forever. It only means that you’ve been strong long enough. It is okay to give yourself a break.

It’s much, much better to acknowledge that you’re weak and then heal yourself than pretend that you’re strong and you can do everything and then wear yourself out in the process until you collapse or explode.

If you are not well right now, acknowledge it. Admiting to yourself that you have weakness is the first vital step in healing. Then, take time-all the time you need to heal.

Give yourself the serenity to find peace. You could find it on activities that you used to do but lost the time to do them, or on people who you used to talk to but you became too busy to reach out to them, or at places that you’ve been before or not, or on things that you love and enjoy.

In order to heal, you don’t have to pause your life. You don’t have to stop attending your classes or resign from your job. You just need to slow down

S    l    o    w       d    o     w     n   .  .   .

Be more present. Consider if the things you do or you allot your time to still serve you. Are the things you do really important or are they already destructive to you?

Take time to evaluate your life. Maybe you need to change something, maybe you need to change everything. Think more of the now, instead of the then or the next.

You can do it. You can heal at your own time. Want it though. Have the desire in your heart to truly heal.

Then after you’ve been healed, be an inspiration to others who need healing. 🙂

A good day to you!

A Moment of Relaxation with You


How are you? 



Why don’t you relax for a while.

Yes, relax. Sit still and if you want to, go on ahead and massage your head. Just gently press your fingers on your scalp and move them in circular motion. There…

That’s okay. Massaging your head helps with the circulation of your blood and it relaxes you.

You may also comb your hair using a fine brush or your fingers. It will also help you relax.

Breathe in and out. Deep breathing will help you release the tension in your body. It definitely alleviates stress. Breathe in and out as many times as you needed.

Do you want some tea? Green tea and mint will refresh you. Just the smell of the mint can even cure your headaches. I recommend camomile tea if you need to calm your mind. Jasmine tea would also be a great choice. Should I add a bit of lemon juice?

If it’s too warm on your location, I would give you a freshly squeezed lemon juice instead. It’s sour, I know but so very refreshing. Or I could just bring you a glass of cold water. You want extra ice?

Just chill for a couple of moments…

Don’t worry about your schedule or the things that you should do for a while. Come on, all of us need to take a break.

Are you fond of music? We can, perhaps, turn on the radio. I know a station that plays mellow music all day long. That could be good. We can change it to your type of music anytime.

Close your eyes and take time to enjoy the serenity of doing absolutely nothing, of relaxing…


What a nice moment.


These days…

There are these days when I am reminded of my disease-diabetes. I woke up with headache, nausea, and body pain. I planned to jog outside but I know I couldn’t. I hate having limitations but what can I do? It’s part of my life now.

There are these days, these days when I can’t help but cry. I couldn’t help but be eaten by regrets again and fears. I couldn’t help but ask, wonder why I should be the one experiencing all these. I am not a bad person. I act stupid or I am tackless at times but I never wish to hurt other people. I know it’s my doing for being like this but won’t I get any help?

There are these days when you just question everything. Why are the bad things keep on happening? Why are my efforts not producing any fruits? Why do I feel unloved? Am I unloved?

There are these days when you just want to succumb to all your heartaches and then give up your hopes.

There are these days when temptations are too strong.

These days…

These days are exactly when we should hold on to our dreams and hopes like we’ve never held them before.

These days are the days when when need to be optimistic and let that optimism grab us and take us out of the mud pit.

These days are the challenges, the obstacles in our lives.

These days are what will make us appreciate the better days…

So uninspired.

Where did January and February go?? I am a bit disappointed with myself for letting time pass me by. I’m still very unproductive. My world still consists of endless YouTube videos, a few TV shows, countless daydreamings, and doing nothing at all but staring at nothing at all. Oh, what have I become? I became a monster! Really. My very own monster. I need to come back as a person.

Yes, I need to be a person again ASAP.

I’m on my third day of my 6-day cardio challenge. To tell the truth, I’ve gained weight and I am blaming my laziness and junk food and fast food. I’ve lost my self-control a bit-no, not just a bit. I’ve succumbed to the sedentary type of life again. Come closer, I’ll whisper something. I haven’t done any morning jog or even walk for a week! A week! Okay, sorry, I shouted at your ear.

Ugh! I wanna spank myself or probably, slap me hard on both-BOTH-cheeks to wake my senses up.

So, I really need to finish my cardio challenge and get back to morning walks. I’ll cut my rice consumption too and junk food. Confession: I’ve brought junk foods yesterday when we went grocery shopping. Anyone want them?

This is it. I got to shake myself up right now and realize that I’m creating possible future problems. I’ll be back on track. Do morning walks, workout at least 30 mins. daily except Sundays, and eat just enough and just what my body needed. No more lounging at the bed from mornings to late afternoons.

I got this!

And while I’m at it, I’ll also start with my project which I posted here. I haven’t yet started ’cause my short story, “A Love Project” took all my attention. I’m also planning to do a compilation of poems, but I’m still 200 poems away from that. 200?! Yes, 200! More or less.