My Pride, My Greatest Enemy

I know I’m not at my best these days. I am extremely moody due to hormonal imbalance, I believe. I currently have my period. But, aside from that I know that my pride’s also butting in. My pride contributes most to me being cranky. I’m writing this now for I’m acknowledging my need to change.

People, lots of people annoy me. They annoy me with every little uneccessary or unkind thing they do and say. In my mind, they’re at fault. They make my head ache, my mood foul, and myself not generally well. Because of that, I speak unkind words to them or about them. Because of that, I think badly of them. Because of that, I hurt them. And when I realize that I became disrespectful and actually have hurt someone’s feelings, guilt eats me up.

Now, I’m coming to realize that it’s not really about these other people. It is about me. I should stop expecting them to be no flaws. I should start accepting them for what they are. If what they’re doing are no longer right, I should talk to them using only kind words. Hating them and hurting them would only hurt me too. Hating them and hurting them would not result into something good.

I should, before anything else, give my pride up. What people do hurt me because of it. If I give it up, I would be more kind, patient, and understanding. Most of all, I would no longer have guilty feelings for I would no longer hate and hurt someone. Every day would be a good day then. And, I would start to get along with everyone.

I will do all of these for myself. In the process, I hope I could inspire others too to create positive environment and relationship with everybody. ­čÖé

By the way, to all the mothers out there, HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! You all are awesome!

Love Yourself

One of the dilemmas 20-something people experience is finding that person we’re going to spend our forever with (that is, if forever truly exist). For someone who has social anxiety, this could be so much difficult. How can one find a potential partner if s/he doesn’t know how to talk to people?

I am not sure about the other countries, but here in the Philippines, people expect you to be in a relationship by the time you reach 20 especially if you have already finished your studies. Relatives will ask you (all the time) if you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. If you say no, they’ll ask you-in a very disappointed┬átone-why. “What, why? It’s just I don’t want to. Why do you care?” We cannot really answer them with that. It’s a no-no to be unrespectful especially towards our relatives.

I am inexperienced in the “romantic love” department. I have never been in a real relationship. I’ve been in fake ones where the only one who knows that the guy (usually a handsome celebrity) and I are in a relationship is me; he doesn’t know too. He-he. Am I making “singlehood at 20-something” a big deal? ┬áMaybe. But I do believe that we shouldn’t be pressured with people around us. There’ s a time for everything, right?

While nobody’s coming on our way yet, let us be the one to take care and love ourselves. Let our love for ourselves resonate with our outlook in life, with our emotions, with our general well-being. Being single never meant nobody loves us. Maybe, it just means that we need to take care and love ourselves a little bit more or better first.

May we find love, whether from other people or our own selves, today and everyday!