I know I’m not at my best these days. I am extremely moody due to hormonal imbalance, I believe. I currently have my period. But, aside from that I know that my pride’s also butting in. My pride contributes most to me being cranky. I’m writing this now for I’m acknowledging my need to change.
People, lots of people annoy me. They annoy me with every little uneccessary or unkind thing they do and say. In my mind, they’re at fault. They make my head ache, my mood foul, and myself not generally well. Because of that, I speak unkind words to them or about them. Because of that, I think badly of them. Because of that, I hurt them. And when I realize that I became disrespectful and actually have hurt someone’s feelings, guilt eats me up.
Now, I’m coming to realize that it’s not really about these other people. It is about me. I should stop expecting them to be no flaws. I should start accepting them for what they are. If what they’re doing are no longer right, I should talk to them using only kind words. Hating them and hurting them would only hurt me too. Hating them and hurting them would not result into something good.
I should, before anything else, give my pride up. What people do hurt me because of it. If I give it up, I would be more kind, patient, and understanding. Most of all, I would no longer have guilty feelings for I would no longer hate and hurt someone. Every day would be a good day then. And, I would start to get along with everyone.
I will do all of these for myself. In the process, I hope I could inspire others too to create positive environment and relationship with everybody. 🙂
By the way, to all the mothers out there, HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! You all are awesome!