A Love Letter

Hey. How are you? I hope you’re good. No, I hope you’re doing great. I hope you’re happy. Maybe, this letter could make you smile. I hope it would.

I write to tell you how I admire you. I admire your strength, your strength to always stay in the good side despite all those temptations. You are strong. I hope you know that. I know you’ve been through a lot but still, you haven’t lost your kindness and good nature. Hey, give yourself more credit. I feel like you don’t because I always catch you in a bitter mood.

Another thing that make me admire you is your resilience. I know it’s difficult for you to do what you’re doing yet you keep on doing them the best that you can. You don’t give up. Maybe, sometimes, you already want to shout or cry but you do not. I guess it’s because you know it wouldn’t do you good so you just choose to be positive at all times. That’s admirable. Really. But don’t forget to give yourself a break too, okay?

I sometimes catch you being too serious. It’s funny, but I don’t laugh I promise. Just, just don’t take everything seriously. I would love to see you laugh. I would love to know that you’re happy, truly happy. That being said, I sometimes notice how unreal your smiles are. I just feel they’re off. I want you to smile and to laugh but if you’re only faking it, then better not do it. I know you’re not perfect and I think I’ll also like it if you would express your sadness. It’s also for you. You have to let go of those not so pretty emotions.

I love you. I love you that’s why I want you to be truly happy whatever that means for you. I love you and I wish you would also find your happiness. I love you and I hope you would appreciate yourself more and please take care of yourself more. Always remember that you’re loved. Even if everyone leaves you, know that I will remain. God will always be with you, too. We got your back, my dear self.

24 New (and not-so-new) Habits

As I’ve mentioned in my post, Decluttering, I’ll be turning 24 next month (specifically on the 7th). I want to improve myself and my life now that I’m becoming a fully bloomed adult. I want to be proud of myself and inspire others too. For me, that’s my main goal in life – to be of inspiration in any positive way.

To achieve my goal, I’ve decided to pledge to observe 24 new and not-so-new good habits. This is also my way of becoming aware of the things that I do wrong and then ultimately stop myself from doing them.

I want to share to you these 24 habits. You can borrow some or you can also create your very own established habits. I think the last one is the most important of all.

1. Be Less Digital

I will be honest, every single day, I’m in my phone the most. And I’m pretty sure I’m not alone. I’m pretty sure there are a lot of us who prioritize social media. It’s like missing out on a news about our idol or about the person we care about is the greatest sin of life. In my case, it’s getting out of hand. All I want to do is be on social media all-day everyday. It’s such a bad habit.

From now on, I will only go on social media whenever I’m in my desk. I will also try my best to not be on my desk all-day everyday. This is only the first step.

2. Stop being lazy for myself.

I take a bath twice daily since I’m living in the hot and humid Philippines. But I know, that’s not enough self-care. I really get lazy to put on mask, to clean my nails, and the likes. This time, I’d be more industrious and willing to be more physically pleasing. I will tend to my nails once every two days and I will do mask twice a week. I’ll do other hygiene tasks more often.

3. Eat clean.

No more junk food. No more fast food. I’ll eat more vegetables. I will stay away from fatty and salty food. I will also drink lots and lots of water daily.

4. Be fit and physically confident.

I will workout even if I don’t feel like it. I’ll get back to my morning walks. My body clock has quite been messed up for a couple of weeks and so I wasn’t able to get up early. I’ve forgotten the day I last did a morning walk. But, I’ll get back to it. I really would.

I will make my body stronger through strength training and yoga and then, I’m certain that I could be confident with it. I will also be able to maintain my blood sugar at normal level.

5. Stop making excuses.

For the longest time, I’m not making any progress in my life due to excuses that I’m making up. I always say I can’t because of this and because of that. This time, no more excuses. I will be a doer now.

6. Stop complaining.

I don’t know why but I always find time and reasons to complain. I complain about my life the most and complaining does not benefit me. So, I would stop. I will also stop comparing my life to others’.

7. Use my time efficiently.

I will find new things to do that will make me more productive. I need to find something that I will enjoy so that whenever I feel bored, I will not resort to using my phone. Hopefully, I could find something profitable.

8. Read more.

I really want to gain more knowledge about anything, but mostly those I could use practically. I also want to enter new worlds and meet new awesome people by reading fictional stories.

9. Write more.

Well… 🙂 I also want to create new worlds and new people.

10. Listen more.

This is another way for me to obtain useful information. I also want to understand other people better. And maybe, just maybe, by listening more to other people, I’d be able to understand myself better. Listening, I know, is also a way of doing someone a favor. Let’s admit it, we are all longing for a person who’s willing to listen to us.

11. Talk more.

Since I am an introvert, I tend to be really quiet. This is why people label me as weird and why they cannot understand my personality. I need to talk more. I need to adjust to them so that we can understand each other. I need to do this for myself. I need to learn how to express myself, how to translate my thoughts and emotions into spoken words. I need to finally speak up.

12. Be more open.

Another strong characteristic that I have is being sensitive. It hinders me from growing because I tend to close my ears than listen to criticisms. Let’s be honest, some criticisms are important. They’re our push to improve. I will now be more open to hear out what people have to say about me and think about them rationally.

13. Say “yes” more.

I will also become more open to opportunities. I will explore the world. I will explore my potentials. I will be willing to try on new things. I will no longer let myself regret not doing this and not doing that.

14. Be more myself.

Most people who know me think I’m serious. I’m really not. Although I’m quite temperamental, I also have a goofy side. I believe I can also pull of a good sense of humor. I can be a little cray in public doing unexpected things for fun. People see me as a complicated person but I’m just really a simple human being. I get happy over the simplest things and get sad over the silliest things. I’m just like everybody else. 

15. Take care of my inner self.

I will continue my habit of meditating daily and doing yoga. I will also pamper myself every once in a while for utmost relaxation. I will also attend to my inner child by playing with my nephews and cousins, by watching cartoons, and many other ways.

16. Always be joyful and thankful.

A grateful heart is a happy heart. Instead of focusing on the things that I don’t have, I will always put in mind how fortunate I am for having everything that I have. Everyday, I will take time to thank God.

17. Be thoughtfully honest.

I am honest, sometimes too painfully honest that I already hurt other people. It’s time I change my ways. I’ll find the right words to say before ending up saying the wrong words. I will always consider other’s feelings. I now realize that it’s not enough to be logical, we also need to be compassionate. We cannot straighten a mistake with another mistake. And the reality is, people will only appreciate honesty if it’s kind.

18. Be optimistic.

Despite being an idealist, I admit I’m extremely pessimistic. I worry about the silliest things and did it help me? Absolutely not. From now on, I’d be more positive. I’ll let myself think more of the positive results of whatever that I want to do and be excited about it than of the negative results and just be discouraged.

19. Help more.

Whenever I can, I’ll extend my hand to anyone who’s in need. I’ll make it a part of my nature to help. And I will help without asking for any repayment.

20. Be kinder.

I feel like we all need kindness. Since we’re all going through some tough times in our lives, an act of kindness these days is much appreciated. I will smile to strangers more. I will be more polite and respectful.

21. Be more patient.

I know I need more patience in dealing with difficult people and difficult situations. I also need the longest patience to wait for my destiny to unfold before me.

22. Spread more love.

The world needs more love. We need more love. I want to share more of the amazing love God has for all of us. I also want others, especially those who feel alone, to feel that they are loved. We all are loved.

23. Love more.

I’m scared to love because I’m scared of pain. But maybe if I love, if I only love without expecting anything in return, there’ll be no more pain. I’ll love more without any inhibitions, I believe all of us should.

24. Be committed.

This is the most important because if I’m not committed, I won’t do all the other 23 habits and I wouldn’t be able to reach my many dreams. 🙂

Dear You…

Be grateful. You have a lot of things to be thankful for. On top of the list is the life that God didn’t give you, but God made for you. Take time to reflect on these two’s difference. God didn’t simply give you life. God made you; God made your life only for you. It’s the greatest gift. Embrace it no matter how difficult it may seem at the moment. Always remember that it’s God’s creation and so, he’ll always be in control of it.

Let go. Learn to sort things out. Keep those which you needed and get rid of the ones you don’t. The latter does not need to occupy some important spaces which the former can actually make use of. You’re not meant to sail a still ocean. Life throws lemons; use the good ones and throw the rotten ones.

Love. Don’t be afraid to feel different emotions. Don’t be afraid to be happy just because sadness may come next. Don’t be afraid of sadness, of fear, and the other negative emotions. Don’t be afraid of them so that they won’t be able to control you. Most especially, don’t be afraid to fall in love. Don’t be afraid to give a part of yourself to other people. Don’t be afraid to love only because of the pain it may result. You’re born to love.

Be happy. They say happiness is a choice and that it is not meant to be chased. I believe in them. Every day, you can choose happiness. Even if you’re not feeling it, you can still choose it. There’s nothing wrong in that. You got to be optimistic for life’s never constant. Keep smiling and let your smile shine for others too who need happiness in their lives.

Hope. Never let hope leave your heart. Keep hope deep within and let it grow day by day. Hope for better tomorrows yet never fail to appreciate today. Hope for awesome opportunities but also try to knock certain doors that could lead to your dreams. Hope for a better you and strive. Hope and water your hope.

Cherish every moment. Lastly, always be present. Moments don’t last no matter how so badly you want them too. And so enjoy each moment, each company, each laughter, each tear. Enjoy life as it is moment per moment. Don’t let yourself have any regrets. Live…

Live God’s gift especially for you with a grateful heart, take every learning that you can take and forget about the bad things, never resist any emotion but never let any of them control you too, smile, dream big, and seize every day!

What is Contentment?

While we were helping our mom make banduria bags, I told my sister, “This is it. This is our life from now on. This is what we’ll be doing. This is it.” I wasn’t sure if I was only joking.

Three years… I’ve been out of school for three years. From when I was 4 years old until I was 20 years old, my life was school. I spent my time out of school doing things for school. It was all academical. I had a goal and that was to finish school. I didn’t realize that I had to make another one before I achieved that goal or else, I’ll be lost. Lost…

I’ve been lost for three years. I didn’t know what to do with my life. It was a shame that I never took my parents seriously when they were asking what my plans are after I graduated. I just thought I’ll go with the flow. The thing is I lost the “flow”. Lost…

“Lost” is not a good word. It means you don’t know where to go next and you’re confused. But when I told my sister that day that, “This is it.” Somehow, I felt found. Somehow, I got to touch the tip of the word “contentment”.

I am a graduate of BS Industrial Engineering. All my college classmates are employed. Most of them work in a manufacturing setting while a few chose to be in the academe. There were also some who chose to leave the country for probably better career opportunity abroad. And then there’s me, a home person who helps her mom make banduria bags. No, no, no, I snapped. This is not what contentment is. “Comparison” is not in “contentment”, albeit both start with “co”.

Contentment… It’s a nice word, isn’t it? Beside it, you’ll find happiness, joy, bliss, love, peace, and gratitude. Oh, what lovely set of words!

I haven’t fully grabbed the word yet but at least, I could touch some parts of it as of the moment. “Acceptance” definitely has something to do with it. I’m accepting my fate. Success is not always important anyway. It’s not the icing of the cake; I believe contentment is. Then, happiness comes when you taste it. Hmm…

That’s all from me for now. 🙂

Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, but the realization of what you already have.

It’s a new day!

It’s a new dawn. It’s a new day. It’s a new life. For me. And I’m feeling good. I’m feeling good. –Feeling Good by Michael Bublé

Oh yes!

Good morning! Today is a new day, a very brand new day with brand new opportunities, blessings, everything! What an amazingness!

Tbh, yesterday was not a great day for me but you know what’s nice? Yesterday’s over. The other day, week, month, year, decade… Those were all over! You know what “over” means? Personally, I believe it means you should no longer let them affect you AND you can no longer change them. Those were in boldface, my dear (you and myself); they need emphasis.

The past no longer exist. It may be a good thing and a bad thing but fret not for a brand new day arises! Open the door, open the windows and let today’s sunshine reach you. Be merry for the present time; nothing else matters right now.

Today, let’s fill our minds with too much positivity that there’ll be no room for negativity. We don’t need to be pessimistic. Especially if we’re facing a strong wall, we got to keep being optimistic. It may take a while but I’m certain that we could break that wall. Let’s take all the time we needed to have the strength of a superhero and then let’s take the courage to punch it.

Punch it! That’s what we should be doing to all our life’s troubles, our fears and anxieties, our worry for the future, our feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness, the depression, the causes of all our negative emotions… Let’s punch them all. They deserved to go and never return.

You know what? We are strong. Yes, Imma just repeat that. We are strong. We are able. We are awesome. We are amazing. And I’m not saying these only to motivate myself and you, I’m saying these because they’re true. I believe them. We should believe them all the time.

Woohoo! It’s a new day! It’s a great time to completely release what’s over, what we cannot change. Don’t get affected by negativity. Take a dose of positivity as often as you should. And don’t forget to be happy-happiness is just inside you so worry not. 🙂

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Wanna know the secret to happiness?

Willingness. That’s the secret to happiness. Simple, right?

You can’t be happy wherever you are if you’re not willing to be happy. If you’re waiting for happiness to bite, it won’t-it doesn’t have teeth. You will only be desiring more of what you have, thinking that maybe if you have more, happiness will finally rest upon your shoulders; nope-happiness is not a fly, silly. You have to take the initiative to hold it, embrace it, keep it.

It’s similar with the other emotions. You cannot be sad or mad or afraid if you are not willing to. They cannot touch you unless you stand or sit or lie still for them. They’re just emotions. They have no power over you unless you let them. Anything. Anything does not have any power over you unless you let it. Anything like life’s excruciating circumstances, failures, and other people.

Yes, I know it isn’t simple all the time. I know. But trust yourself. You’re strong enough to be willing and be not. You are strong enough to be your emotion’s master, they’re yours anyway.

So if you want to be happy, be willing to. Be willing to smile despite of everything you’re going through. Actually, I believe it will help. Your disposition will affect your life. If you frown, the bad will be worse. If you smile, all bad may turn into all good, but definitely not worse.

Be willing. Open your palms. Reach out for happiness, it’s just a yard away. Then close your palms and transfer the happiness on your chest. Let it reach your heart. Let it stay there. Let it grow there. Let the happiness inside your heart comfort you and keep your lips smiling. ❤

17 Random Facts About Kriz

Just because it’s 2017, I’ve decided to create this post. Personally, it’s like traveling to memory lane again as I try to find interesting facts about me. Here we go.

1. During my first year in high school, I stole my classmate’s chair and never admitted that I did it. We even had an argument while my Math teacher was discussing our lesson. The ending: he let me be and got a chair of his own. Sorry, classmate.

2. When I was in day care, I cried when I was instructed to be the last person in the line. Apparently, my surname starts at W and apparently, my classmates thought it was hilarious that I was at the tail of the line. Kids!

3. I didn’t know how to use the Internet until I was in college (2009). For homeworks during high school, I used Encarta, if not a real dictionary. Once, in my last year in high school, my classmates had me joined them as they spend our vacant time at our multimedia center. All I did then was open Microsoft Word and type my favorite song. I even used Wordart for its title. Real dope.

4. I lost my allowance one day in grade 6. I almost cried. Because three of us in the class had lost our money in that particular week (I think), our adviser asked us to write in a paper who we thought stole our money and put it in a fish bowl. I didn’t really have any idea who did it so I just wrote whoever came to my mind first. Actually, thinking about it years later, there’s a huge possibility that I just misplaced my allowance. Sorry, again.

5. I was the most quiet girl in our class because I don’t really know how to socialize. One Christmas party of my grade school years, our adviser did a “Bring Me” game and she asked my classmates to literally Bring Me (as in me!) to her so that I could join in the fun.

6. I’ve experienced trekking twice on our educational trips back in college. They were awful. The pathways were slippery due to rain. I would have fell if my classmate wasn’t holding me. But now that I am a bit fitter, I’d like to do it again.

7. I love the color pink. I find every shade of it unique and pretty. Actually, my room is pink as well as my bed and my curtains.

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pink roses from my 18th birthday

8. We used to have rabbits as pets. They were so cute but the babies weren’t (lol). It’s so nice feeding them with celery, carrots, and other vegetables. I think they died. Aww.

9. I am a sensitive person. Nuff said.

10. There are two things that I’m so afraid to do because of my parents-lying and cursing. However, that doesn’t mean I haven’t done both my entire life.

11. I am so bad at sports. I had to play table tennis during grade 6 though as we were all mandated to join our sports fest. I won one game and that was it, a lower grader defeated me.

12. I don’t know how to swim. My brother and I almost got drowned during our first time in the beach. Fortunately, our dad was just nearby.

13. When I was in high school (especially the first years), I used to register to an unlimited texting service and text any number that I could formulate. Some replied, some didn’t most probably because the phone numbers weren’t existing then. Hihi.

14. I thought I could sing until my mom shut me up. At least, she saved me from possible further embarrassment. I still sing though when I’m by myself.

15. Back in college, we did declamation in the class. After two stanzas, I embarrassingly forgot the rest of my chosen piece (If), my teacher had to get the copy from my friends and dictate it to me. I still got a 90 though, all good.

16. Back then, my sister and I both wanted to be fashion designers that we filled in notebooks and more notebooks with our not-so-beautiful designs. None of us pursued fashion anyway, but she took up dress making in high school.

17. I want to own a piano and be able to play it well. I’m just in awe every time I get to watch pianists perform difficult pieces. Music brings life to me too.

And there goes the list, everyone. Would you want to do it too? Go ahead. It’s nice to remember happy and embarrassing moments every once in a while.

May this year bring us more happy and embarrassing (but not so much, please, please) moments that we could laugh about and cherish for the rest of our lives. Happy 2017!

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