24 New (and not-so-new) Habits

As I’ve mentioned in my post, Decluttering, I’ll be turning 24 next month (specifically on the 7th). I want to improve myself and my life now that I’m becoming a fully bloomed adult. I want to be proud of myself and inspire others too. For me, that’s my main goal in life – to be of inspiration in any positive way.

To achieve my goal, I’ve decided to pledge to observe 24 new and not-so-new good habits. This is also my way of becoming aware of the things that I do wrong and then ultimately stop myself from doing them.

I want to share to you these 24 habits. You can borrow some or you can also create your very own established habits. I think the last one is the most important of all.

1. Be Less Digital

I will be honest, every single day, I’m in my phone the most. And I’m pretty sure I’m not alone. I’m pretty sure there are a lot of us who prioritize social media. It’s like missing out on a news about our idol or about the person we care about is the greatest sin of life. In my case, it’s getting out of hand. All I want to do is be on social media all-day everyday. It’s such a bad habit.

From now on, I will only go on social media whenever I’m in my desk. I will also try my best to not be on my desk all-day everyday. This is only the first step.

2. Stop being lazy for myself.

I take a bath twice daily since I’m living in the hot and humid Philippines. But I know, that’s not enough self-care. I really get lazy to put on mask, to clean my nails, and the likes. This time, I’d be more industrious and willing to be more physically pleasing. I will tend to my nails once every two days and I will do mask twice a week. I’ll do other hygiene tasks more often.

3. Eat clean.

No more junk food. No more fast food. I’ll eat more vegetables. I will stay away from fatty and salty food. I will also drink lots and lots of water daily.

4. Be fit and physically confident.

I will workout even if I don’t feel like it. I’ll get back to my morning walks. My body clock has quite been messed up for a couple of weeks and so I wasn’t able to get up early. I’ve forgotten the day I last did a morning walk. But, I’ll get back to it. I really would.

I will make my body stronger through strength training and yoga and then, I’m certain that I could be confident with it. I will also be able to maintain my blood sugar at normal level.

5. Stop making excuses.

For the longest time, I’m not making any progress in my life due to excuses that I’m making up. I always say I can’t because of this and because of that. This time, no more excuses. I will be a doer now.

6. Stop complaining.

I don’t know why but I always find time and reasons to complain. I complain about my life the most and complaining does not benefit me. So, I would stop. I will also stop comparing my life to others’.

7. Use my time efficiently.

I will find new things to do that will make me more productive. I need to find something that I will enjoy so that whenever I feel bored, I will not resort to using my phone. Hopefully, I could find something profitable.

8. Read more.

I really want to gain more knowledge about anything, but mostly those I could use practically. I also want to enter new worlds and meet new awesome people by reading fictional stories.

9. Write more.

Well… 🙂 I also want to create new worlds and new people.

10. Listen more.

This is another way for me to obtain useful information. I also want to understand other people better. And maybe, just maybe, by listening more to other people, I’d be able to understand myself better. Listening, I know, is also a way of doing someone a favor. Let’s admit it, we are all longing for a person who’s willing to listen to us.

11. Talk more.

Since I am an introvert, I tend to be really quiet. This is why people label me as weird and why they cannot understand my personality. I need to talk more. I need to adjust to them so that we can understand each other. I need to do this for myself. I need to learn how to express myself, how to translate my thoughts and emotions into spoken words. I need to finally speak up.

12. Be more open.

Another strong characteristic that I have is being sensitive. It hinders me from growing because I tend to close my ears than listen to criticisms. Let’s be honest, some criticisms are important. They’re our push to improve. I will now be more open to hear out what people have to say about me and think about them rationally.

13. Say “yes” more.

I will also become more open to opportunities. I will explore the world. I will explore my potentials. I will be willing to try on new things. I will no longer let myself regret not doing this and not doing that.

14. Be more myself.

Most people who know me think I’m serious. I’m really not. Although I’m quite temperamental, I also have a goofy side. I believe I can also pull of a good sense of humor. I can be a little cray in public doing unexpected things for fun. People see me as a complicated person but I’m just really a simple human being. I get happy over the simplest things and get sad over the silliest things. I’m just like everybody else. 

15. Take care of my inner self.

I will continue my habit of meditating daily and doing yoga. I will also pamper myself every once in a while for utmost relaxation. I will also attend to my inner child by playing with my nephews and cousins, by watching cartoons, and many other ways.

16. Always be joyful and thankful.

A grateful heart is a happy heart. Instead of focusing on the things that I don’t have, I will always put in mind how fortunate I am for having everything that I have. Everyday, I will take time to thank God.

17. Be thoughtfully honest.

I am honest, sometimes too painfully honest that I already hurt other people. It’s time I change my ways. I’ll find the right words to say before ending up saying the wrong words. I will always consider other’s feelings. I now realize that it’s not enough to be logical, we also need to be compassionate. We cannot straighten a mistake with another mistake. And the reality is, people will only appreciate honesty if it’s kind.

18. Be optimistic.

Despite being an idealist, I admit I’m extremely pessimistic. I worry about the silliest things and did it help me? Absolutely not. From now on, I’d be more positive. I’ll let myself think more of the positive results of whatever that I want to do and be excited about it than of the negative results and just be discouraged.

19. Help more.

Whenever I can, I’ll extend my hand to anyone who’s in need. I’ll make it a part of my nature to help. And I will help without asking for any repayment.

20. Be kinder.

I feel like we all need kindness. Since we’re all going through some tough times in our lives, an act of kindness these days is much appreciated. I will smile to strangers more. I will be more polite and respectful.

21. Be more patient.

I know I need more patience in dealing with difficult people and difficult situations. I also need the longest patience to wait for my destiny to unfold before me.

22. Spread more love.

The world needs more love. We need more love. I want to share more of the amazing love God has for all of us. I also want others, especially those who feel alone, to feel that they are loved. We all are loved.

23. Love more.

I’m scared to love because I’m scared of pain. But maybe if I love, if I only love without expecting anything in return, there’ll be no more pain. I’ll love more without any inhibitions, I believe all of us should.

24. Be committed.

This is the most important because if I’m not committed, I won’t do all the other 23 habits and I wouldn’t be able to reach my many dreams. 🙂

Dare to believe.

After the rain
The rainbow will shine.
After the fog
Everything will be clearer.

After the tears
A smile would arise.
After a nightmare
There’s a brand new day.

After a bad day
Comes the best day.
After the obstacles
Is a lovely place.

After the rocky road
You’ll see your awesome destination.
After a steep mountain
Comes an unbelievable view.

After the dark clouds
You’ll finally see the shining stars.
After the storm
The huge strong sun will shine.

After a fight
There will be hugs and kisses.
After the thorns
You’ll feel the soft petals of a beautiful rose.

I am not fat.

I’m so tired of being called “fat”.

I’ve been fat my whole life and I’ve been teased about it since I could remember. It wasn’t cool, you know? It wasn’t cool to be defined by the weight of your body. Although saddened and extremely pissed at my detractors, I never really did anything about it until I got a problem in my stomach. It was back in high school. My doctor then prescribed me some suplements to help my digestive system digests the food I take in quickly.

Apart from those tablets that I used to take every after meals, I also had some sort of a chocolate shake (it may be a protein shake) which supposedly replace one of my meals every day, ideally dinner. However, I didn’t have any control over my mouth. Especially when our dinner’s just so yummy, who am I to resist? Right?

It’s also super difficult to go on a diet when your entire family loves to eat. Where’s your support, family? So… To conclude my attempt to weight loss, I simply fail miserably. I didn’t really lose any weight. My stomach got well though so… so…

And then here comes the tear-jerking part. I got diabetes. (Cries) No more sweets! No more excessive/binge eating! Control! Control! Control! Hello, nausea, headaches, body pain, energy gap, anxiety, and depression (I won’t go into details on this one, this’ll be on another blog post).

So… My doctor advised me to excercise. My blood was thick due to excessive glucose so I needed to move my body, shake it, and of course watch what I eat to make it normal-or at least close to normal. I did as I was told. I wanted to get well. I hate being sick for I believe when you’re sick, you don’t enjoy life best (which is not really the case).

So… I worked out. Cardio became my best friend. Since I was only a beginner in exercise, I only do 5-10 minutes of cardio with the help of a mobile app. That’s aside from walking every morning for 30 minutes more or less. I was too afraid during those days, tbh, to eat anything. I was clueless (I still am actually) on the food that I could eat. I was afraid all the food in the table would cause a rise in my blood sugar so I only take small portions. I was probably nauseous then because of nutrient deficiency as well.

My weight after a few months had significantly decreased. I think I lost 10 pounds in the first two to three months. That was a lot, isn’t it? My blood sugar also went back to normal, thank goodness!

However… However! I kept on falling after six months. My average blood sugar for four months is above normal, which isn’t good. I was eating food that I knew I wasn’t supposed to. I no longer walk everyday. I don’t workout everyday. I eat a lot again. I don’t lose any more weight.

Sometimes, I get confused with my body. I haven’t still memorized it and the signs it’s giving me. When I’m feeling unwell say for instance, I’m not sure if it’s because my blood sugar is high or low or it’s due to stress. But because I’m diabetic, it’s probably the first option.

Right now, I very really want to get back on track. I want to live life to the fullest and I don’t want family to worry. I also no longer want to be called “fat”. I am not fat! OK, I may still be fat but that won’t be forever.

My goal is to be fitter and most of all, healthier. It’s not going to be easy, that’s no brainer but I’ve already done it before. I would be strong enough to do it again. My journey to being “not fat” has begun.

It’s a new day!

It’s a new dawn. It’s a new day. It’s a new life. For me. And I’m feeling good. I’m feeling good. –Feeling Good by Michael Bublé

Oh yes!

Good morning! Today is a new day, a very brand new day with brand new opportunities, blessings, everything! What an amazingness!

Tbh, yesterday was not a great day for me but you know what’s nice? Yesterday’s over. The other day, week, month, year, decade… Those were all over! You know what “over” means? Personally, I believe it means you should no longer let them affect you AND you can no longer change them. Those were in boldface, my dear (you and myself); they need emphasis.

The past no longer exist. It may be a good thing and a bad thing but fret not for a brand new day arises! Open the door, open the windows and let today’s sunshine reach you. Be merry for the present time; nothing else matters right now.

Today, let’s fill our minds with too much positivity that there’ll be no room for negativity. We don’t need to be pessimistic. Especially if we’re facing a strong wall, we got to keep being optimistic. It may take a while but I’m certain that we could break that wall. Let’s take all the time we needed to have the strength of a superhero and then let’s take the courage to punch it.

Punch it! That’s what we should be doing to all our life’s troubles, our fears and anxieties, our worry for the future, our feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness, the depression, the causes of all our negative emotions… Let’s punch them all. They deserved to go and never return.

You know what? We are strong. Yes, Imma just repeat that. We are strong. We are able. We are awesome. We are amazing. And I’m not saying these only to motivate myself and you, I’m saying these because they’re true. I believe them. We should believe them all the time.

Woohoo! It’s a new day! It’s a great time to completely release what’s over, what we cannot change. Don’t get affected by negativity. Take a dose of positivity as often as you should. And don’t forget to be happy-happiness is just inside you so worry not. 🙂


Why are we too fond of new beginnings?

This is my first post and it is just most apt to talk about beginnings. Yes? Before 2016 ends, I had asked myself why we’re making all of those fuss about new year. We’re just changing our calendars anyway. It’s not like there’ll be two Mondays or we’ll be skipping a day. What’s so important about new year?

I found my answer from these words-new beginnings. As our 2016 calendars expire, we get to have our new beginnings, new opportunities, a new year. Yey!!

However… Aren’t we too fond of new beginnings? Couldn’t we change at the middle of the year? Make goals, for example, in June? The sad thing is some of us actually wait for a “new beginning” to do something we have always been wanting to do. That’s just it.

Well, honestly, I’m one of those people. I am always waiting for that perfect moment. And it’s a little too late when I’ve realized that there’s really no such thing; too late for I have already wasted too much time. Sad, eh?

Anyway, let’s now talk about the beginning itself. Let’s talk about New Year’s Resolutions! Those lists that we tear down after January, the lists that are being forgotten by the end of February! LOL. Do you still make them? Last year, I didn’t make one. This year, I have a few lists.

My main goal for this year is to establish a career. For almost three years, I am idle. OK, I got a bunch of writing jobs but by the mid of last year, they’re gone and they’re never regular anyway. So, I am basically idle. This year, I want to finally find a regular job, a job that would fund my love for books and make-up. Hehe.

Another goal of mine is to have a healthier lifestyle. Being idle also means a sedentary lifestyle, which is one reason why I am diabetic. I want to have an active lifestyle starting from this year to help cure/ease my diseases, as well as to ensure that I’ll live healthy for years and years.

2017. 2017, I’m claiming you. You are my year. You will be the best year ever! And I am praying that everyone else will be better, happier, and healthier this year. Cheers to new beginnings!